Very Thankful
11/25/2021 12:34pm
Happiest of Thanksgivings!!! How are you all? Are you feeling especially thankful this year? I know I am. I feel as though that there is so much in my life to be thankful for: from the biggest to the smallest. I'm thankful for it all. See, I don't use this day to focus on the brutal act of taking someone else's land, although I will never forget. I choose this day to give thanks to the ones around me who I am extremely grateful for. I'm grateful for family, friends, and associates who show me constant love. This is the time where love comes together and creates a casserole of laughter, hugs, and memories. I have another year of life to experience love with my family. Regardless of drama, hate, & disturbances, I will always love my family & true friends who have my back. Sure, we all have that hating ass family member/fake friend who gets their rocks off by putting you down, but honestly, I don't have the time & energy to truly shit on you. Although I can, easily, I would not like to disturb my peace. I'd like to spread the love that God has put in me to spread, the way that it's supposed to be.
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Since this is a Thanksgiving post, I would like to give a list of things that I'm thankful for:
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First of all, God. Without God's grace, I couldn't even tell you how or where I'd be.
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Being able to have a roof over my head in Manhattan with the self-love & security to be my true self. Not only just the roof, but I can pay my bills & enjoy my life abundantly.
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The ability to actually be able to practice self-love. Loving yourself takes an immense amount of practice and self-confrontation, but if you do the work, self-love becomes automatic. Just choose yourself & you'll always be more than stellar.
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Music! I'm so grateful for music. This year, specifically, music has pushed me into a whole new stratosphere of life. Music has taught me so much about the world & myself. I respect the mass perspectives presented in front of me within music & I'm grateful to be able to share mine. Like idgaf what you say/think about my music. My stuff is really good & I enjoy doing it. I'm making the music I've wanted to hear for my entire life. Your hate will never stop me. Love is the only thing that moves me & it only propels me forward into more love.
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Having energy around me that pushes me to do better and succeed. I have so many forces that are rooting for me & I can't even explain how grateful I am for that.
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I'm equally as grateful to have bad energy removed from my life & being able to effectively recognize & eliminate bad energy within my life. I have too many goals to have bad vibes linger in my life. That shit is so dangerous for your spirit. I only choose to accept genuine love. Not opportunistic love.
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I'm grateful for my family. Every single member. Lovers & haters. Close or distant. Alive or passed. You will always have a place in my heart. I mean, we share the same blood so <3
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My plants, Earlatto & Buzz. I don't talk about them much but they have really helped me become so responsible. Earlatto is a jade plant & Buzz is a cactus. They need new pots so I think I'm gonna get them that for Christmas. Don't tell them tho :X
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The Knicks!!! I was at the Laker game this Tuesday & when I tell you that we have LOVE? Obi, iQ, RJ, Jules, Evan The Baller, D-Rose, all of you!! I'm grateful to be able to experience your greatness in this time & experience it in-person.
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To be able to understand romantic love, just a little bit more. I, now, understand myself & what I am willing to do for another. I never thought feeling this willing was possible but I know that it is. Everything with "Ideal" may not have gone as I would have liked, but at least I know what I'm willing to do & still maintain a healthy balance between loving myself & another person. So, I'm thankful for her, who has helped me understand this.
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I have so much more to be thankful for but as for this list, lastly, I want to thank Drake now for releasing this song. When I was younger and I heard this song, I immediately felt an understanding to what he was trying to say. It hasn't gone away. I posted the lyric video so that you can truly see & understand the gems he dropped on us. I was like 12, studying the music game & this song showed me how to avoid some of the pitfalls that could've been destructive. I'm thankful for that insight & also, I'm thankful that the Drake & Kanye beef is "over." Real or not, it's always best to leave beef in the past. Lemme produce a record for y'all. AT can definitely create the record that is needed right now. I actually already have a loop for Drake & Kanye that just sizzling on my hard drive. Just say the word.
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Anyways, thank you all for reading. I hope you find an abundance of reasons to be thankful this year. Life is good. Despite all of the trials, tribulations, & adversity, you can always succeed if you: 1)believe that you can 2)practice that you can. Everything good takes practice. Practice is hard but think about how many practices MJ & Kobe had to go through to be that great.
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I'm grateful, thankful & appreciative to the fact that I can live the life I desire. God has truly blessed me & for that reason, I will always show my thanks.
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Live Life Proper <3,
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ATwilight
Weigh Up, Don't Wait Up
11/18/2021 12:07am
WOAHHHH! Is that him? Is that AT? Yeah, I'm him & what about it? Welcome to the best blog on the "metaverse." I know some of you may be wondering where I've been for the first half of November. Honestly, I've just been working on myself & elevating. Now, when I say working on myself, I DO NOT mean my weight. Due to stress and work, I gained a lil bit of weight. Not like a HUGE amount of weight but I'm definitely a lil fatty. I've felt stressed from a lot of the moves I've needed to make but honestly, what's life without adversity? Boring, that's what! I'll get over this micro-plot line of stress and walk in my success sooner rather than later. I refuse to get into destructive habits because that'll affect my decisions in the future. I need to make the correct moves for myself, my family, future family & the people who believe in what I'm doing. I would say I'm doing a pretty alright job. Obviously, everyone can improve on something so I just try and gauge whenever it's time to elevate. During the end of October and beginning of November, I made the decision to increase my quality of life. I'd like to get better & don't run from improvement. You shouldn't either! I'm telling you! If you want to do some ambitious shit, just do it. As long as you aren't hurting yourself & others, by all means, go & get what you want. It's out there for you to get and enjoy. As for this lil fat ass I got over the past month, I'll work it off. I needed to gain a lil weight for the cold anyways. This gives me a lil origin story too? Not only am I refusing bad habits, but I'm aiming to develop wonderful, healthy, & self-loving habits. This will not only help me, but it can potentially help others around me. I know what it feels like to have f'd up gut health & I'm going to figure this out for myself. Maybe I need to visit Styles P's juice bar in the Bronx but it's so deep! Oh well, I digress. We haven't talked in awhile so you know I got some thoughts & prayers on my body.
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First of all, is it just me or is it getting harder & harder to believe that real love is out there? Everyday on social media, there's a new story about somebody getting fucked over in a relationship. Fam, after previous heartbreaks, I don't want to deal with some of this shit. There's a H.E.R. song "Trauma", where she talks about not wanting drama from the trauma of a bad relationship & I deadass understand that. I don't want to waste my smiles with someone who will eventually cause too many frowns. When I think about previous relationships, I don't get mad. I just wish I could've been with another woman who was better for me. Oh well! I don't cry over spilled milk. I'm very happy that it didn't work out. I'd say more about why but I'm just gonna exit the ex topic because why talk about old news? Anyways, I do not need/want to be in a relationship unless we are happy together. I'm not the guy who dates people because he's lonely. That's corny. I'd rather be lonely & happy than in a relationship & bummed. Sex isn't even fun with people you don't really know like that. That's how you end up with a baby from a stranger like Lawrence and Condescending. If I choose to pursue you, it's because I see myself enjoying a lot of time with you. Of course, I've met so many beautiful women in this world but not everyone would be able to watch Major Payne & spit Biggie bars with me. You can't run it up with just anybody. I'm cool with staying "lonely" until I find the correct person to grow with. I be takin' my lonely ass to Knicks games & I be havin' a BLAST!
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In other news, shoutout to Summer Walker, India Shawn & Silk Sonic. They really put out some amazing albums. I won't talk about Summer's that much because (. )(. ) BUT she got real hits on that album. Silk Sonic got this record on their album called "Fly As Me" and it echoes the exact sentiment I was speaking about earlier. I can't be with someone who doesn't vibe with me! Humbly, I'm fly asf & I can't be with a lame, boring shorty. I need a fly ting to keep me flying <3. I love that record & that album will be a classic. People of all ages are talking to me about it & telling me how much they love it. As time goes on, it'll grow & I'm excited to see it happen. As for India Shawn, TUH! She went so crazy that I got out of bed to include her in this post. This is an edit at 3:55am. That's how dope her album is. I thoroughly THOROUGHLY enjoy it.
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Before I leave, I would like to send my regards to the family of the Queen of Brooklyn, BK Tidal Wave. Fam, when I found out about this, my heart deadass broke. I literally watched a BK video, took a nap, and woke up to the news. I remember hearing her on Tax Season for the first time a long time ago & I understood her shine when I heard her perspective. The video I put up there is a remix of her first interview with HNHH, remixed by Knxwledge (best remixes in the game). She will truly be missed & live forever in our hearts thru her comedy. Also, RIP to Young Dolph. They got my guy in his own city while getting cookies. I'm not a street dude by any means, but there might be some shit behind that. I just pray for his soul, his family & Memphis as a whole. I can tell he meant a lot to that city. Lastly, I want to say RIP to the ragers that lost their lives at AstroWorld Festival. Even though I could talk about this for hours, I'm not going to talk about that on here. I'd rather talk about that type of stuff with professionals with actual information. However, what I will say is that you should give everyone involved a break. This situation is way more complex than anyone outside of the situation could ever understand.
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In conclusion, all I'm going to say is LEAD WITH LOVE! Make sure that you are giving others the love they need but only if they are willing to give you love back. Not all love looks like love that you are familiar with so just embrace it. Love comes in many forms & the more open you are to giving/receiving love, the more interesting and comforting do the forms of love become. Also, make your crush/booski smile with a selfie or sumn! Most importantly, be yourself. If they don't like you when you're being yourself, fuck em!!!!!
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Best Regards from Afar,
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AT
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