God Builds Balance
07/08/2022 11:44pm

What's up everyone. Crazy CERN'd out week that we have all had. A bunch of emotions have been running wild while some company tried to recreate the Big Bang underground. Honestly, I don't even know if that's true or not, but it doesn't matter. Aside from my Knicks pummeling The Warriors in Summer League (which we will prevail in), this week was still kinda clumsy. I don't know what it is but for some reason this week, I've been feeling this dull depression. So many decisions are being made without our control & so many things are changing.

For example, I'm thinking about the fact that NY is going to really allow legal carrying & ever since then, I've been worried. As everyone may know, NY is getting filled with new gentrifiers, who, on some colonizer shit, are looking to make NY their own. As a certain TikTok about experiencing food deserts shows, people who come to NY to gentrify neighborhoods lack respect for the community that they have entered to live. With that lack of respect will, inevitably, come a willful ignorance to the culture of the community. This will create a disconnect between the gentrifier & the community, thus them not assimilating to the culture, nor even trying to understand the people within the community. This will lead to these gentrifiers to feel as though they need to "up their safety" & obtain carry licenses, which could possibly recreate another Trayvon Martin situation. I know that maybe this could be far-fetched, but honestly, is it? I don't know. I'm trying my best not to let this stuff really get to me. I just worry about the kids from NY. They should all have the chance to experience life as fully as they would like. It sucks that so many NYers are being pushed out of their spaces to make room for people who don't make an attempt to respect culture, & would erase the existing culture to create their own, if they had the chance. I'm not against people coming to NY to live out their dreams & be who they have always dreamt themselves of being, but respect the people of where you are at. These people built lives in NY & you can't just out-price & out-culture people because you have more money. If you have all this money to blow, get a luxury apartment in Manhattan because I know they have vacancies.

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Ok, since that topic was kind of upsetting, let me change gears. You ever think about how stupid we look, in the dating game, playing nonchalant? Fam, why am I acting like I don't like you when I literally adore you? I'm sitting here, not liking pictures that I clearly LOVE, just to see if I can get your attention by not liking it. How stupid is that? Where did I develop this terrible rizz?? Women aren't excused from this either. Why are you acting like I annoy you when I make you happy? You think I want to feel like you don't like me? That nonchalant shit doesn't work with me because I will deadass give up. I hate feeling like a bother fr. As soon as you do that, I'm starting to check out w/ you. You not about to make me feel less than, when I KNOW you like me, just because you wanna be "nOnChAlAnT". That nonchalant shit is confusing & not worth it. I would rather someone come at me straightforward. Being nonchalant will always lead to miscommunication because you aren't communicating how you actually feel. You're just putting on this facade to protect your heart fr & that's not how you play the Love Game. You gotta be yourself & if you get hurt, just know that your Booger Sugar is around the corner waiting for you to learn what you need to learn while they learn what they need to learn. There's someone out there for everyone, so don't let one person get you down, especially someone who chooses not to communicate in an effective way because what the fuck are you doing??

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Ok, I'm about to enter a slumber. Before I do that, I need to fully digest this Wendy's I ate while seeing my Knicks slaughter The Warriors in Summer League. I ordered 3 Jr Hamburgers, 10 Spicy Nuggets, a Large fry (I hate when people say that) & a Large Strawberry Frosty. I only finished the Frosty because I'm not a fatty (& they deadass gave me 0 sauces for my nuggets. They must've thought I was a masochist). I think I should be fine in about 20 minutes. &&& before you judge my eating habits, ya boy hit the gym before & had great gym motivation. Shoutout to *redacted* <3. Surely, this week has been mellow, but there have been upsides & there will be more. If we have to take a small string of Ls in order to get there, so be it, but we will prevail. You know me. I don't mind a few Ls, but I don't play that losing shit fr. Let's W 🆙 

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Live Greatly,

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AT

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P.S. 📅 

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