Good evening, you lovely readers of this blog! I hope everyone has been winning consistently this month. If not, it's ok. There are always more Ws ahead. Ls are just lessons to collect as much knowledge as you can & readjust accordingly. If you don't treat your Ls like that, you will be overloaded with Ls &, ultimately, you will become a loser. Lucky for all of us, we learn & (love)​ win! Anyways, I just got back from a quick sushi dinner before I hit the Knicks game. I have so much on my brain & I need a release. I decided to treat myself to sushi & I don't regret it. I'd tell you where but I'm gatekeeping to keep it as my spotski.

:P. Sowwwwwyyy!I!! 

I was feeling a bit blown today because I would like to do more work & learn new things but I'm not being challenged (or paid) at work like I need to be. I have so many goals I will achieve & I have to figure out how I'm going to achieve them. Day by day, the puzzle finds itself clicking, but before it does, I need to empty my mind, like SpongeBob said. I decided to get my sushi (alone) to calm my nerves. What did I get, you ask? Salmon & Yellowtail Maki & a Crunchy Crab Roll. Ngl, it was MAD sushi but I ate it all. To top it off, I got a Matcha Tea Latte with Oatmilk, a shot of X, & a shot of chai. Honestly, it feels great. I have a few things I kinda wanna type about though because what a day, amirite?

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First of all, congratulations to Rocky & Rihanna! NY boys do it different! Once we spot a gem, we don't know how to let go fr. Rocky been scoping that woman since before "Fashion Killa" & now, that woman is his child's mother. What a W for Rocky & Rih. I'm extremely happy for them. I can't wait to have a baby frfr. I've been thinking about it a lot lately. Like I can just feel myself inching closer & closer to my sushi eating partner, but I would rather it be real. I'm not gonna force a situation because I'm "lonely". I'm too playa for that! Never EVER do anything because you're desperate. That's not what we do. I would rather something align with who I truly am & not force anything that doesn't need to be forced. Speaking of babies, I went to Bed Bath & Beyond yesterday & copped a bath rug, candles, skin scrubber, & a shower liner. They deadass have a whole as Beyond section with rugs & plants & stuff. I was astonished but I had no time to lolly gag. I needed to get home. I brought my stuff & went out into the world with this paper bag. I'm trotting around New York City with this HUGE paper bag with buybuyBABY on it, like I'm some guy that has CHILDREN ON THE WAY!! It felt like woman repellent & it's crazy because I deadass don't even have a girlfriend. You see my dilemma? Whatever though. I'm not tryna holla at the girl whose tryna holla at the guy whose about to have a kid. Actually, if I'm about to have a kid, you can't holla at me. I'm sure my wife would body you for looking any type of way. Plus, I'm not leaving that woman! That's my wife!! Ok, I digress. Euphoria Chat?? Let's do it!!

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Ok, first off, Cassie, dawg, stand in your power. You screamed at the top of your lungs that you were crazier than Maddie but you folded right in front of her. You threw up Strawberita in a hot tub, which I know does not contain chlorine. If you were really crazy, you would've ate that whole debacle & talked about it later with Nate. See, lemme get 2 bloggin really quick. Disclaimer: I do not live & die by this knowledge, but I understand it. If you wanted to prove you were crazier to keep Nate, you should've played it cool at the party like a wifey would. Then, after the fight that Nate would inevitably have with Maddie, you hit Nate on some "Are you ok? Come get cozy in this new home." If you wanted Nate THAT badly, you should've just played it cool, like the double agent you are, and come to Nate with comfort. Instead, you folded. It's ok though! You weren't tough enough to handle that type of sick relationship. Nate has a sick bloodline. Nasty Man Cal is his dad. He has a lot to figure out! When Maddie asked him if he knew that she loved him & he said "Idk...", I really felt him because word. How do you know if someone REALLY loves you? Love is a feeling that many people don't fully understand & to make things harder, some people require extensive proof of love in order to grow in love!! Some people use love to manipulate & hurt vulnerable people who want to grow in love with someone. They use & abuse people but cover it up by saying they "love" someone but it's not love. Love is when you have someone's back regardless of whether they need it or not. Love is bigger than value. Value plays a part in love, like it plays a part in anything, but love is the bigger picture. Honestly, I don't know how to define "love" frfr because who really does. I bet the real word for what we all crave is some Italian word. I'll figure it out one day. For now, I just keep moving in on the feeling of what I feel is love. I don't believe in a tragic love for me. At the end of my life, I'll be able to be like " Yeah, I experienced mad nice love :-0" There's more to understand & experience. It all takes patience, baby! Every new day, I get a new understanding of what "love" is.

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Anyways, I'ma get outta here to watch this Knicks game. We just got off a 3 road game losing streak. I'm a true fan so I'm coming to see them win @ MSG. I know my guys are a great team but there are some issues we need to fix. I just hope the Garden doesn't ode on the team because we really have been playing like shit. We'll bounce back though. I hope you all enjoy your evening & know that in February, I'll be going hard & then I'll be going harder than that. The Knicks are getting better, AT is getting better, NY is getting better, US is getting better. Everybody is getting better, if you embrace your betterment! I know I am! Are you?

 

With Class & Debonair,

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Aaron