Ready For Feb?
01/31/2021 11:05pm
February 2021 is going to be the most interesting Black History Month in history. That's all I'll say for right now, but one thing is absolutely for shizzy:
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Shoutout Chloe Bailey.
Almost Home
01/14/2021 8:04pm
First, lemme kick this post off by asking you to please consume Mac Ayres' new album, "Magic 8Ball", a literal masterpiece ting. This song "Almost Home" inspired me to communicate this thought with everyone reading this.
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Sometimes, growth may seem wrong or different but when we learn to embrace it, we feel our wings start to expand.
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Recently, I've been feeling happier than I've ever been before. Why is that? I embraced growth. I learned to understand that embracing different circumstances and different outlooks help us expand upwards. I refuse to live stagnant. I've always been that way but I used to run away from that "wrong" or "weird" feeling. I didn't understand it. Now, I understand that that feeling is just your "higher being" saying to you:
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"What are you going to do about it, wuss???"
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Me?? Aaron?? I'm gonna confront my goals and milk them for everything they got, plus a McFlurry and Chocolate Chip Cookies. Feeling this way makes me feel at home with myself, which is something I've searched for my entire life. I'm comfy with myself, regardless of all my embarrassments, sins, and bad moments. I feel good about myself because I embraced that feeling. That feeling that comes along with growth. No one can stop someone who loves themself. No matter what happens, you'll always love yourself right through the bullshit. So, keep on loving and appreciating yourself and the people who love and appreciate you and you'll be golden. Shoutout Jill Scott <3
2021: New Year, Newest Me
01/12/2021 5:24am
I have been stalling on writing this post because I really needed to analyze this new year. We started off with a bang didn't we? A terrorist attack on the Capitol Building? Jeez dude. Quite honestly, I'm not surprised. "The 2021 Movie" needed to start on some crazy shit because this is going to be a very powerful year. This will be a year of whatever you make it. Just follow your truest self and you will be fine.
I've been asking myself "What do I want out of this year?" for about 12 days now. Honestly, making art will always be a constant in my life but that's not the most important thing to me. The most important thing to me is peace, which art is just apart of. I refuse to engage with anything that disrupts my peace. I enjoy my happiness and want to continue to be happy with myself.
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Also, lately, I been thinking about this whole "relationship" thing. I haven't been in one of those in almost 3 years & I kinda want one dude. In 2021 and onward, I wanna be apart of a woman's happiness and subsequently, make her apart of mine. Admittedly, in previous relationships, I haven't been the best at communication. Eventually, I'd like to be in a relationship with someone who can truly communicate with me and vice versa. I've reached a point in my life where I have no room for anything other than healthy relationships & I'd like to mutually commit to being healthy with someone.
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In this insane universe we live in, two souls coming together and finding eternal love isn't as hard as most people think it is. Just take it easy and understand that you are growing alongside someone. Allow yourself the time and ability to love them and them to love you. I want to reconnect with my soulmate this year but if that doesn't happen, I'm not gonna be super upset about it because I know that what is for me will always be mine (and I'll still be down when its time). Whenever we connect, it'll be the right time & I don't mind being patient for her.
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Also, sidebar, shoutout to H.E.R. "Still Down" got me in my lovey dovey bag like a dweeb. Got me simpin' about my future wife and the things I'll be delighted to do for her. EMBARRASSING!!