Yo, people!! "He's back?" Uh, yeah! I'm the man, AT! This is my domain, baby. I own it <3. How's everyone feeling? I hope everyone is doing well. A LOT has happened since the last post. Honestly, I've been working towards something for the past two months (no, its not music), & it's been taking up some of my time. Also, I've been upset about some dumb shit I got myself into. I played myself, so I had to congratulate myself with feeling like a dumbass. I got up out that feeling though, gratefully! I understand that I believed in someone I shouldn't have & I paid the emotional price for that. However, I've been through heartbreak before & every winner learns from their mistakes & you already know I'm one of those. I may get into it later if the words take me there but for now, I'll just say that I should've treated myself better than to wanting to be with someone who's wack. Like the old saying goes "There's plenty of fish in the sea!" Shoutout to all the Pisces! 

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Ok, off that. You hear this fucking Drake song? I just found it today & I was like "Yeah, I'm getting a T&P off tonight." That guy Drake is really good. I'll never deny talent & why would I? This guy is STILL doing it. This is just a leak! Well, it's a slowed version of the leak. You already know AT loves his slowed music. This guy Drake is spittin' though. I, too, wish people didn't mention me to other people for cheap conversational value & I also wish some people weren't as cold to me as they are. However, I am aware that I'm cold as well & if that is a Law of Attraction situation, I guess I gotta figure that out. It's truly a defense mechanism & I'm Sun Tzu. I've been crushed & let down by mad people in my life but it's ok. That only means that I'm filtering out the unfit ones for this dope ass journey. Eventually, I will meet someone who can provide enough warmth for this cold heart o'mine<3. Shoutout to the good people out there that want the best for me (not just from their perspective). Also, shoutout to Drake. I hope we can share a hookah someday & chat. Also, pls don't take this chune down fr. This is one of them ones.

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Also, it was my birthday last Thursday. All this drama & energy hit me during that time so needless to say, I was in my bag. I just turned 24 & I was fucked up about it. I was in what someone hilariously called a "Mid-Kid Crisis." I enjoy where I am & what I'm doing because I'm building things but just reflecting on my life was crazy. I could sound like a broken record & say "I've been through a lot" but I'm tired of feeling like that. Everyone goes through things. I just want to start giving myself more love. It sucks that I entangled my energy with people that never had my best interest in mind or heart, & even wanted the worst for me. Who the fuck have I been spending time with? Who am I? Well, that's an easy one to answer: 

I'm AT, the dopest man ya ever done seen!

I had to remember that I really love myself, work hard for myself, have a solid GP, strong-willed, I enjoying helping, love my family, will love my future family, can Za with the best of them, "ladies love him" (ironically, I'm kinda hot ;-), & I'm THE bag-getter/money maker. At the end of the day, I've got me & the ones who constantly show me they love me. I'm not to be played with fr. Like you could play, but know what game you're truly playing. The only one I allow to play me is myself! Even with that, I'm so old that I feel tired of playing myself. I've beaten this game a few times. Just like you, the lovely reader, I've overcome bullshit too! I can do it again, but I'm consciously choosing to live doper, the dopest even! Not even "starting today!" I've literally always been this way. I just let the wrong people affect me in the wrong ways. Again, this has happened before. I know how to deal with this. In reference to the Drake song again, "I fell for you straight to the bottom." & luckily, I stood up & realized it wasn't that deep. I have realer connections abound & now, I intuitively know what a wack connection feels like.

 

Anyways, I just had some tacos & tostadas: 2 pinto bean tacos (soft), 2 chili tacos (hard), & 2 steak tostadas. All with no cheese because lactose intolerant. They were pretty good. After I finish this, I gotta do some work towards my lil thing I'll talk about next month. I didn't want to leave this month with 1 post. I've just been going/growing through some bullshit. Before I leave, I just wanna say shoutout to Elon Musk for buying Twitter at $44B. I hope he is ethical with this purchase. He holds a bunch of power now & he can't be lame about it. Somehow, I have a feeling he won't do a bad job. 

 

Please take care & spread love the best you can. Be mindful of how you're treating yourself. Like fr. Feel yourself & the energy around you. Make sure you're good because you can't help anyone without helping yourself. However, don't just help people because it benefits you. That's backwards asf. Do it because it will be beneficial for the bigger picture. We all wanna live in a better world, right? That's how you start.

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Thanks For Letting Me Vent,

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Healing AT

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